A few weeks I was at the bar with friends having a grand time. Then one thought after another hit me square in the face. My love life, my emotional stability, my self confidence, just anything and everything hit me. Seeing that I was down someone whom I've rarely spoken to asked me what was wrong, and for some reason it seemed like I opened up like a cloud ready to storm.
Everything came pouring out to her. She listened while I ranted for a good half an hour and at the end she asked me that one question nobody likes hearing..."WHY?" Why do I feel that way about myself, why do I let others put me down, why do I let others walk all over me. She then asked me "what do you see when you look in the mirror, be honest..." It took me a while to be able to be honest with her and when I finally told her again came "Why?"
In this day and age media plays a huge role about how we should portray ourselves. Girls should all be petite and skinny, guys should all have muscles and 6 pack abs...In actuality not everyone looks like this...In fact...people who look like this are the minority. This woman said to me..."I want you to look in the mirror every morning and say 'I love who I am, I love everything about me, the only person who can change anything is ME' Just do this for me"
I took her advice and every morning I sit there in front of the mirror and say to myself "Do I want to work out today, or do I want to lounge?" It has really helped me realize that I am the only one who can change who I am, and if I have the drive and effort to do it, I can...if I don't choose to do anything than I will stay the way I am.
I thank you so much for your help, and I seriously owe you a debt of gratitude.
Friday, July 8, 2011
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
If I Die Young
Its true...I used to blog and keep a journal for my thoughts for a long time. However I have backed off for quite some time. Its time to start again. I need this outlet to let my creativity and musings flow.
The title of this blog has a lot to do with my latest obsession of "The Band Perry." Their song "If I Die Young" has a subtle, but meaningful message. "The sharp knife, of a short life." No one really knows how long they have on this Earth. It could be years more, or days more. This song has really taught me to realize that I do not have the time to sit and putter. I need to do something with my life before my time comes.
I need to start living life for me, and not for others. I need to be respected for who I am on the inside, not the outside. I need to find someone who will love me for me, and not the clothes I wear, or the way I look, or because I pay for EVERYTHING.
To be honest, I was in love and it was amazing, however it ended, and I have been in such a turmoil over it. I have said to everyone that I am over it and it is for the better, however...I am NOT, repeat...NOT over it. There is not a day that goes by that I think, "what if?" or "what would life be like if I were still with him?" However listening to the lyrics in that song makes me realize that I need to get over this love, and start over again. I cannot sit here and wait for someone to come to me, or for him to come back to me. It is time for me to move on...
That is pretty much all I can think of at the moment but if I think of anything else I will surely write about it here...Goodnight, good luck. Love to you all.
The title of this blog has a lot to do with my latest obsession of "The Band Perry." Their song "If I Die Young" has a subtle, but meaningful message. "The sharp knife, of a short life." No one really knows how long they have on this Earth. It could be years more, or days more. This song has really taught me to realize that I do not have the time to sit and putter. I need to do something with my life before my time comes.
I need to start living life for me, and not for others. I need to be respected for who I am on the inside, not the outside. I need to find someone who will love me for me, and not the clothes I wear, or the way I look, or because I pay for EVERYTHING.
To be honest, I was in love and it was amazing, however it ended, and I have been in such a turmoil over it. I have said to everyone that I am over it and it is for the better, however...I am NOT, repeat...NOT over it. There is not a day that goes by that I think, "what if?" or "what would life be like if I were still with him?" However listening to the lyrics in that song makes me realize that I need to get over this love, and start over again. I cannot sit here and wait for someone to come to me, or for him to come back to me. It is time for me to move on...
That is pretty much all I can think of at the moment but if I think of anything else I will surely write about it here...Goodnight, good luck. Love to you all.
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